so small.

I have a confession to make. A big one.


I have been in a 5 year battle with God. Yeah, I said it... God. The Almighty Creator of the universe.... yep, that one. You see, I haven't used the gift that He has given me... and lately I've been really feeling convicted about it. Actually, I've felt convicted about it for a long time now. oh bother...........

What is my gift, you ask? Singing. Yes, singing. I'm rather good at it actually. The Lord has given me a deep passion for music. I can't play any instruments, but I want to learn. I can write. I've started writing poems that can easily be made into songs. But do I do anything about it? Nope. God has been putting this on my heart for a long time, and I've been too insecure to do anything about it. I look at others using their musical gifts, or their God-given gifts in general, and it brings me so much joy. So why can I not use my gift and be filled with even more joy???? It is exceptionally hard now that I live in College Station. This city is so big and filled with awesome musicians. They are taking their gift and running with it. And I just watch them in awe. I feel so small in this town, like I couldn't do anything with my voice even if I wanted to. I feel so useless almost. I feel like this is Satan attacking me. Why can't I fight back???

Here's the Truth. Obedience brings you peace and joy. Disobedience brings conviction and discomfort. Period. Are you keeping your gift to yourself? Have you asked God to reveal what your gift is and what He wants you to do with it? You were made for the glory of God. You are on this earth to further His kingdom.

So, pray for me as I get through this obstacle, and challenge yourself to take some quiet time with God and ask where He is leading you.

Have a great week!